jumper.

blog has been pretty dead for some time already, haven't really had the time to be sitting down and pouring my thoughts out here. not supposed to be here right now actually, supposed to be at work but screw that, i've been doing too much work recently. got a nose bleed a couple days back, my body is starting to give way to this nonsense.

talking about my body, somehow with all the stress, i'm not losing weight or anything. THAT IS SO UNFAIR. people lose weight due to stress right? right? RIGHT? i don't seem to be shedding any flab or kilos. i really envy people who have high metabolism rates, cos, to state the obvious, i'm not one of them. i used to be pretty chubby growing up. i WAS a skinny kid right up til i was 10 or 11. and then puberty struck and i became, erm, round. looking the typical well fed asian kid, with long hair, glasses (nerd glasses, like serious nerd glasses), chubby body and pimples. needless to say, i hated the way i looked.

like, how could someone look so tiny and puny and cute as a kid and then look like miss awkward rollie pollie ollie the next day?

until today, where i'm closing in on 20 years, i still don't like the way i look. i'm not some pro-ana freak, but i just want to lose weight, dammit. T.T

once, for once, i lost weight after rbs, but a year later, i'm as round as ever. i have myself to blame, i have a terribly sweet tooth. been cutting down on junk food, but i love my burgers and ice creams and hot chocolates.

maybe it's just a girl thing to be unsatisfied all the time, heh. I NEED TO STOP COMPLAINING.

found this on fb, taken during christmas last year, and it's june already. time doesn't fly, it practically whizzes. i think i've blogged this photo before, but it's just so pretty to look at. the whole bunch of em' there, we've grown up together. so smiley and happy.

from left to right (back row) : eu ern, jethro, maggie, hoc leong, mabel, jo'anne and me.
the two squatters up front are jon and isaac.


happy june the fourth everyone (whatever june the fourth means)!